First to 3 lymph nodes out of 11 removed during Original Surgery in 2005, then my ovary October 2008, then liver spring 2009, then diaphraghm and small intestine lining Seotember 2009 to present.
I’ve been busy again… so I’m gonna catch y’all up. About 3 weeks ago, my son’s father called me to let me know that My son’s grandma (his mom) was dx with cancer…Unfortunately it was very advanced, but we thought maybe she’d be able to fight it for awhile, I went to see her in the hospital after mt last chemo treatment but, she was sound asleep so I didn’t bother her, I just left the card from my oncology office and went home. Sadly, that is going to be my last memory of her in tha bed, looking pale and thin and just so sick. David (my son’s father) called me thsi morning to let me know she passed last night. I knew it wouldn’t be long, they sent her home from the hospital last Wednesday with Hospice care because she wanted to be home when she died. It just SUCKS, SUCKS, SUCKS! Why is there NOTHING they can do for this disease? Why is there no cure or even one on the horizon? There is so much dr’s can do these days, yet, it seems this isn’t on the list. I’m crying cuz not only am I sad, but I’m pissed off. Am I next? That’s whats been in my head all day, even though, I know even also being stage 4, I am no where as weak and ill as she was, still…it seemed to happen so fast. Well that’s it…this was depressing enough, sorry y’all.
love and hugs to you all,
Gwen
I am so sorry to hear about her death. Yes, Cancer does suck, big time. Just remember, never give up. Go through it, Over it, or under it, but never give up. Fight like a girl! :)
She is at peace. It is much harder on those of us left her missing them so much. Hugs to you and yours. Sharron
Sorry to hear of your loss sweetie and know where you’re headed with that one! Yes it sucks BIG TIME. Unfortunately, there have been major advances in the treatment and therapy for most cancers, but it seems like it’s luck of the draw as to how, when and where it appears. I truly believe that all of us are born with cells that could be termed cancerous and a lot of things factor in that cause them to suddenly grow. SIGH**
Now if they could just figure out something to kill them off faster! HUGS and HUGS and HUGS. WE will overcome! take a day for reflection, memories and then suck it up to go on fighting. DO NOT GIVE UP!
Just me
Gwen, I am so sorry. I think many of us in here have asked “am I next” even those of us who aren’t stage 4. Sadly, when the good Lord is ready for us he is going to take us and we have no control over that. I think we all go through the different stages, anger, hurt, denial, saddness, it’s a vicious cycle. We must stay positive. Believe it or not, negativity drags you down which can in turn drag our immune systems down, which in turn can shut our bodies down. We must stay positive!
My heart goes out to your loss,
hugs
amy
Gwen,
Just checking in on you and seeing how you are feeling? I hope things are moving along better for you:)
Hugs,
Melinda
I have just found this web page and am so glad. I have been sick for the past 6 months w/weight gain, fatigue, now flu like symptoms once a wk, unexplained severe foul smelling thin stools with blood-allegedly hemmoroids, swollen feet, severe pain in abdomen on right side under breast which is an everyday pain in abdomen up to my ribs left side, I can almost feel something that should not be there under my breast. Had a clean endoscopy and colonoscopy. I am a gym rat for 25 years and now I cannot even get out of bed. They continue to diagnose me with IBS, but I don’t believe it. the vomiting is becoming more frequent. I have not had a fecal occult whatever nor a cat scan of my organs. When I go to the GI specialist I cry because they give me antidepressants which do not help the pain nor the symptoms. So I just live like this day in and day out. I give up on doctors. Help.
Sorry, I’ve dropped the ball so to speak over here, but, it’s been an extremely busy few weeks for me…my oldest daughter had her 3 nights of musical performance (Bye, Bye, Birdie) March 19, 20, and 21st, then last weekend we had a fundraiser for our local 4H program here in Clarke County Virginia on Friday night (which went well, it was basket bingo and dinner, we made over 3 grand clear for scholarships and such), then last Saturday we had Share the fun, (a 4H talent show thing), where my oldest daughter sang ‘White Horse’ by Taylor Swift and won a blue ribbon in her category (Senior Vocal) which means now we are off to Lexington, VA on April 24th for District Share the Fun! Now, health crap…the cellulitis wasn’t clearing so I called my oncologist and went in Monday afternoon for the nurse to see, they switched me to another antibiotic and it is finally seeming to clear some, the last bad one has been draining all week FINALLY, but I am still not sure it’s going, going, going…kwim? This is now what 6 weeks of no treatment and antibiotics…very frustrating, I have my appt today, I don’t know if I’ll have treatment or not, it’s just starting to clear, so my vote is no, wait another week, but we will see.
Anywho, I’ll try to catch up with everyone and see how you all are sometime today and over the weekend. Hope you are all enjoying the beautiful Spring weather like we are here.
(((((((hugs)))))))))
PS= anyone know if stomach tubes are supposed to be flushed on a regular basis? Mine does not smell so nice (kinda sour) I opened it and it seemed clogged last weekend so I squeezed the blechy stuff in there out and it’s smelled sour since? I dunno…no instructions were given to me when it was put in or upon release from the hospital, I don’t use it, I’d prefer to have it removed…I just dunno.
How wonderful for your daughter, I bet you were so proud and excited to see her. Two of my children are preformers and I love to see them on stage!
I will up the prayers on your healing, that darn stuff (cellulitis) is horrible. My husband finally got the antibiotic he needed for it…what a mess. Bless your heart, you must be one tough lady!
Have a blessed Easter surrounded my those you love and prayers that you can eat, drink and be merry. :)
Loves to you,
Larissa
Happy Easter to you and your family…
You must be so proud of your girls, I bet they were wonderful.
Sorry to hear about your problems I will hope and pray that they get better very soon.
I do have a PEG tube and am told to flush it with 60 ml of water per day ( room temperture). I use the seringe, and usually put a couple cups of water through each day, extra hydration. I am glad to hear that someone else gets ” backup” too. I asked the nurse about this and she said it was normal.Oh I was also told to turn the tube and base everyday, like a new pierced earing so it does not stick. Hope that helps you Gwen.
Sunshine and Smiles val
Hi there! First of all thanks for becoming one of my supporters. We all need as many as wish to do so!
Secondly.WHHOOOT HOOOOT to your girls and their accomplishments in 4-H! I’m a former 4-H’er(SP???) myself! Was in thru Sophmore year of HS as a Junior Leader. Our group went to State with our skit when I was only 13 and BOY were we proud!
Bless you and your family! It sounds as though you are working your way through a tough time and still keeping a “normal” life going VERY WELL.
Have a great weekend!
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I am so sorry to hear about her death. Yes, Cancer does suck, big time. Just remember, never give up. Go through it, Over it, or under it, but never give up. Fight like a girl! :)